School is just around the corner!!! Usually every time school almost starts, I always feel nervous, sad, and bummed. Why? Cause it will mean homework, waking up early, study, and classmates that you can't tolerate. But now.... It's different... I still feel nervous, but I'm excited, and quite happy in some way. I'm finally going to college! xD Usually school means my end of happiness, but hmmmmm... My emotions right now are mixed up! I am happy (its unusual), and in some way I'm only a "little" sad (which is supposed to happen, but not little). I'm happy cause it feels like I'm about to start something new. I don't know what will happen, and I'm not certain with anything about my life in the future, but I'm happy cause I'm going to start building my future from now on, and it excites me! This ain't elementary school or high school where what matters most was who you are and what your classmates thinks (this was my case). Now it feels like what matters most is what will you do for your future. I wanna start building it immediately, but... I'll be losing a lot of stuff which I love too... Yes this is why I'm a little sad. When school starts, it does mean a less time doing what I like, and that includes painting, piano, and Gaiaonline... Oh and video games too! School will start a less then a week from now, and sigh... I don't know why it feels saying goodbye to what I like doing, but it just feels that way. I don't want the week to end yet, but I want to start going back to school immediately too. This is why my emotions right now are all mixed up. The course I took up is Medical Technology, a not-so-easy-course. A course where studying is a must. I chose this course, and nobody forced me into it. So I know what I'm getting in to. So I do know what I must do from now on... But hey! This ain't a goodbye from Yi Aine. Just telling the whole world I'm just starting! I will still have time painting and playing the piano... Ugghh I think I can't imagine me without my painting hobbies and me playing the piano... It's just not me... Ahhh basta! I'm about to submit deviations soon, just to tell myself (not anyone), that I do love painting and even if school is REALLY important, it won't be a hindrance to my painting... But it just mean a little less time spending with it... LESSER than I already am right now. xDD LOL! Anyway that is all... >.<
Oh and this journal entry ain't a goodbye! Just telling everyone what I'm up to right now. n_n


Oh and I just wanna say Hi to my friends in Gaia, especially to Kyrene and Meg! <3 I missed you two soo much! Do PM me if you have time! PM me anything you want!